Acid, chillie fries, and a movie.

Note: never ever take a concussed xenomorph to the bowling ally. 
What?  Well let's start at the beginning.  Xiggie and I take a trip to the movies with the roommates.  Since we arrived a tad bit early, Xiggie proclaimed we just had to go to the bowling ally.  They have games,  good place to pass the time.  So we go.
In his excitement Xiggie leaps from my pocket and lands very ungracefully on the concrete.  The little dude maintains he is OK.  But between you and me,  he was a bit concussed.
Anyways,  we get inside and the fat kid in me screams CHILLI FRIES!  and I can't say no to that.  I go to order and my little concussed Xiggie decides to hop on the counter and scare the poor woman with his god awful hissing and drooling.  I quickly gather the little guy up before he can ruin our chance at cheesy goodness,  and take him towards the arcade area.  Let's face it arcade games are awesome.  We play a little house of dead.  (which only cost a quarter ) shocking I know! That thing use to cost a dollar....
Then. We. See. It.
Aliens!!  (Extermination)

Yeah you can imagine how that went. Xiggie, being what he is, is ecstatic.  He insist that we play it. The poor guy has no idea. Let's just say he had a Minnie freak out. My hand won't be the same from the acid...By then the fries are done,  and I've sort of lost my appetite, mainly from the acid incident. I don't know if you've ever seen a xenomorph through up, but it's no pretty. Now I love Xiggie but... He has a habit of getting into my food.. And with my hand, and the fall, I'm slightly irritated. The little bastards ate almost all of it.  

So long story short,  don't take a concussed xenomorph to the bowling ally. Let's just hope he behaves during the movie..

Sever nerdom

So,
I watched Star Wars the other day,  for the 15th millionth time.  I realized something,  I'm my own special type of nerd.
For example I know random things about history and zoology.  Well I know random things about mythology too.. And just silly facts. 
I know that a parsec is a measure of distance not time. I Can do the pathagarim therom,  and I understand the theroy of relativity.

However there are still things that I do not know or understand.  Like I know a little bit of Latin.  I can play chess(not magnificently ) but I understand the rules and what not.  But explain football...I don't get it.  Nope not one bit.  Football is one of those things. I don't know the random awesome facts about Star Wars,  (I lived with a treky for 8 years) I had to keep the peace. I can't for the life of me grasp geometry. I haven't seen all of Doctor Who,  nor Sherlock.  And I JUST barely finished Firefly.  

Hey!  I had put a lot on hold to have that cookie

 cutter life. I hid,  hid who I truly was.  I wanted things to be a certain way,  wanted my self to be that perfect wife.  I refusesed to accept who I was.  Who I am.  

It took watching Star Wars for the 15th millionth time. With someone who sees me for me.  To FINALLY realize, I am me,  I like what I like and that should be enough for others.  Now my close friends have been telling me the same thing for years.  Your AWESOME!  

Though like any person, who has a hard time seeing their worth,  I didn't believe it.  Even that special nerd in my life told me the same thing,  yet I didn't believe him. Why should I? When you go through a lot of emotional.....turmoil? It wears on you.  Cuts you down.  

But I'm a special nerd,  the force is strong with me,  and hey I'm AWESOME!  

Stay shiny friends!!  

Remember! Life is short and your perfect  the way you are!! 

The D word,

Divorce. 
If you want to get technical, I was married. Eight years living with someone having kids with them, I guess after five years your considered common law husband and wife. which I think is a cop-out. So technically I was married, so therefor I got a Divorce with out the alimony. I wont go into the muddy, gory details, I've had enough of that. Plus I highly doubt anyone wants to REALLY hear me complain about how unhappy I was.
So yeah, Married with no ceremony, I guess that was the biggest heartache for me. wanting something with the person you loved just to be faced with excuses. But I guess that's all in my perspective. Oh I am bitter aren't I?
So what if I am? I gave up a lot. I really did.
So this is going to be a shocker, I left. I left EVERYTHING. The House, the kids, the car, the pets. Everything. Eight years of building a life and I left it. Now I left on my own. I did not run into the arms of another man nor did i move in with one. I stayed with friends.  And Im still getting myself together. Shoot I just barely got a job not two days ago.
The thing about break ups, is they aren't easy. I don't care what anyone says. No you can't still be friends, yes it is tough. Even if you where unhappy for the last two years of the relationship. It still Hurts. Hurts really bad, you go through so many emotions. I myself still do. Its been about three months, I know no time at all, but I was REALLY unhappy, I'm not going to sit here and say it was all his fault, but I'm not going to sit here and make excuses for him either.
The one thing I've learned through all this, is to trust in myself. To be proud of myself. Its hard to see yourself and be positive in such a negative situation. But it happens, you start finding humor in things (Xiggie for example) and if you have a support group then your golden.
What I assume I'm trying to point out is, yeah my heart hurt, still does at times. However, there's something to look forward too. there really is. So hang in there, there are people who care about you. It might not fill like it but there are. Keeps those people close, they will help you through the roughest times. They will pick you up when you are down, dust you off, and help you.
Till Next Time
Emma

New blog, new start.

Im not going to drone on about why I started this blog.  There's quite a few reasons.  Many I will discuss in the blog itself.  But for now we'll just keep it short. 
What is Xiggie?
Well he is a Minni xenomorph "toy" if you will.  I adore the litte guy!!
I will be using Xiggie as a centerpiece,  mainly for humor,  or a topic starter. 
So this is it.  My blog is not a one idea thing I'll discuss many things in it.  Anything from a movie review,  to a rant about something.  So sit back and enjoy my crazy adventures.